Hey you guys,
Okay, I know I haven't written in a long time. I didn't want to write about me being...
As some of you already know, I'm sick.
They found a mass of tissue (for some of you not as quick, like a tumor or lump) on my neck. I went to go for an ultrasound on Wednesday.(and again, for our slower readers, last Wednesday) That was fun.(sarcasm) In reality, it was one of the worst 1/2 hours I've ever spent. I mean, I laid there in this dark room on some table and the technician ran this probe thing over the spot. then she started freaking out and got about 3 more techs and then a radiologist to come and look at it.
In the end, they didn't know what it was. So the doctor sent me to get a CT Scan.
I got that on Monday. They stuck an IV in me. It wasn't as bad as I thought but that doesn't mean it made it to my list of "The Top Ten One-Minute Events of My Life". It hurt! They had to stick this plastic thing in me after the needle because they needed to pump like, this sodium iodine in me or something.
Then the machine whirred around a lot. there was a bright yellow tag above my eyes. It said, "WARNING: DO NOT STARE INTO THE LASER BEAM!" So what's the first thing you do? Stare into the beam. Dumb planning on the manufacturer's part, I must say. lol.
Then it was over. He took the thing out, and I got to go home. The results were supposed to be in today. No such luck. They still have no clue.
And now, before I go onto something else, I need to say something. I promise, I'm going to be fine. I need prayers, but I don't need your sympathy or empathy. I need you to not worry about me, because then I worry about you worrying about me, and then it's a big worrying circle and we don't need that before Christmas and finals. If you have any other questions, ask me.
Okay, now onto something else. When can I stop paying the price for mistakes I made long ago? I cam back to school this year trying to be a good Christian leader and a...a...good influence. But how's that going?
I get back into school, and something about that atmosphere just changes everything. I go back to my prep-hating ways, and I don't think it's right for me to hate someone because of what they wear. Shouldn't I get to know them first? Isn't judging the very thing I'm fighting against?
It's a little to much for me to manage. Sometimes I wish I could move, to start over. Go where no one knows me. You know, a smaller school. Not like Liz's where the freshman class is like the biggest one with thirteen kids. But not like ours, where you have one thousand kids. Nah, I want like, mm...one hundred freshman. Yeah, that'd be good. lol. But it looks like I'm stuck at North. For now, anyway.
But back on topic. I am not doing so hot with my missionary work. Sometimes I feel like a lousy Christian...
Anyway, enough drama. Going on. I hope all who came to Taryn's surprise party had fun, I know I did. (Laying in the streets at 8:30 at night) From all of us:
WE'LL MISS YOU TARYN!!!!!!!
Anyway, Megan out.
~*Megz*~
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